Hi everyone!! :)

Nothing special to say today.. I had something to say this week.. because I realised something at work and instantly thought "I have to put this on LiveJournal" AND of course.. when I got home I had forgotten what it was I wanted to talk about.. it kinda sucks because it was very interesting.. or so I think :-\ *lol*

And when I realised I had forgotten what I wanted to talk about I thought : "Fine, I'll just talk about "this" instead" ... and I didn't right away.. and I forgot what "this" was too *rotfl*

I think I'm losing my mind!!!! :P

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I don't know about you all, but weather is completely crazy over here (Québec City in case you didn't know) ... we had one of the biggest snowstorm yesterday! Cars got stuck in parking lots, others ended up in snowdrifts like 5-6 feet high :-\ and the wind.. oh the WIND was the worse !!! I can tell you that I'm not going out of the house today.. nuh-huh!! I was supposed to read on the couch with a big comforter and a cup of coffee... but I'm on the computer.. again! What a geek *hehe*

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On a completely different note .. I'm so in love with LOVE today.. I don't know why *hehe* I've been reading love quotes this morning on the Internet and it struck me.. LOVE is so beautiful! ;) Here's a quote I really liked :

"Love isn't blind, it just only sees what matters!"

I think it's very true!! When you love someone, truly love someone, you only see what matters!

And I don't know why I'm so happy/lovey today, because things weren't really great these past few days.. but I guess a couple of the quotes I read made me smile and made me feel better! ;) That and two great friends that chatted with me on msn!! *hug*

One of my friend needed me to listen to him and comfort him (troubles with his boyfriend poor baby *snif*) and it actually made me feel better to make "him" feel better! :)

and another one who constantly makes me smile or laugh!! Awwww I needed that !!

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OOOHHHH and I bought a couple of books last week.. and I'm currently reading Irish Hearts by Nora Roberts (her first novel and it's sequel)... it's an awesome love & life story about a young woman who moved from Ireland to the States to work on a ranch and fall in love with the owner of the place! Told you.. I'm in a funny lovey mode these days *lol* :P

Have a great weekend everyone!
*HUGS*
Annie xx

I've never really experienced loneliness before.. seriously I'm not kidding *hehe* that was a weird feeling when it first struck me *lol* It happened yesterday and really hit me like a ton of bricks! I can be very much of a people person and I can also be a very quiet and solitary person, depending on my mood and the activities I have planned ;)

For as long as I can remember I've done "alone" stuff and really enjoyed it. I wasn't sad or anxious to stay alone, it was by choice and I loved it. I could stay up all night reading or spending a whole day at the library. I could spend an entire afternoon watching TV Shows on DVDs or surf the Internet for hours or go to the movies alone ;) And my life never felt empty to me and I never felt lonely, ever.

Until these past few weeks!

I've been going out and hanging out with friends (some new, some old) a lot more lately and now when I'm alone and don't have anything planned, I'm kinda feeling lonely! :( It's not a nobody-loves-me-and-I'm-all-alone kinda lonely, but I'm missing my friends terribly and that's something I'm not used to.. the missing and loneliness feeling.

It's not a really great feeling.. "loneliness" *hehe* It's crazy the power that people can have over you, no matter how independent you think you are. I guess you could say it's normal to experience new feelings when your life is changing, evolving. You're so used to living your old life (as beautiful as it can be), that every change of habits can shake and affect you *hehe* and I don't mean in a bad way.. just that changes always have that effect on people ;)

Alright, where was I going with this ? *lol* Oh yeah! I'm so happy (and lucky too) to know the people I know, I LOVE my friends to death... but I think I'm kinda addicted to them.. and I feel lonely now when I don't see them for a couple of days *hehe* Damn funny and lovable friends! :P

But don't worry, I can still spend time alone with myself and really enjoy it and not feel lonely ;) it's just that yesterday I was.. feeling lonely.. and I realised it's no fun :P

Okay I'll stop writing and let you get back to your life now ! ;)
Have a great week everyone *hugs*
Annie xxx

I believe.. things have never been better!
I believe.. it's gonna get more beautiful by the day!
I believe.. I can do whatever I want!
I believe.. my Karma has never been more perfect!
I believe.. I'm destined to be happy!

and..

I believe.. LIFE is beautiful !!!

I love how I never stay blue for long *hehe* Nice sunny saturday morning.. going shopping with my dad!

Have a wonderful weekend everyone !
Annie
xxxx

I realised something today (okay I didn't realise this only today.. but I was thinking about it tonight *hehe*). Feelings. Love feelings. It sucks when they are not reciprocated! And still.. even though the love is only going one way and even though you just KNOW that you're gonna get hurt if you don't move on.. you still waste a lot of energy and time thinking about this impossible love.. and hoping!!! Hope can be very dangerous at times, especially for your mental and emotional health...

Love can be impossible for a lot of reasons. Because the other person isn't single, because they're not interested, because they only see you as this "really good" friend... or worse.. a combination of those things!

Yet, you just can't help yourself and think, in some miraculous way, that this person will wake up and see how much they love you. Yeah right! It can happen... maybe on their end it's the same thing and they're just not sure "you're" interested... but maybe you have to wake up and admit to yourself that it's all in your head :-p

Alright.. I think this is the most random entry I've done in a long time *hehe* and it's definitely going nowhere.. so don't mind me.. just feeling a little blue I guess ;-)

*hehe* this is a rather random update to my journal *lol* but it's been 3 days since I've updated it so I thought what the hell! :P

I used to really hate Sundays... you know when you get Sunday blues and all day long the only thing you're thinking about is that you have to work on monday.. that the day is passing by wayyy too fast and you don't wanna wake up at 6 am tomorrow :\

Well.. I don't get those anymore.. or anyway it's pretty rare! :) And I think that's a really good thing, because what's the point of not working on the weekends if all you do during half of it is obsessing about going back to work on monday *LOL* It's so important to appreciate what you have, live in the moment, and that in every situation, no matter how long or short those things/moments/vacations/stories are !!! ;)

"Living in the now" was one of the thing I didn't do... but I guess as the years go by.. I'm more calm and serene so I'm able to ;)

Alright.. enough rambling for now.. I'm gonna spend a part of my sunday afternoon making a music video on one of my favorite movie : "Latter Days"

Annie
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